“If you can start the day without caffeine or pep pills. If you can be cheerful ignoring aches and pains. If you can resist complaining and boring people with your troubles. If you can understand when loved ones are too busy to give you time. If you can overlook when people take things out on you…when through no fault of yours something goes wrong. If you can take criticism and blame without resentment. If you can face the world without lies and deceit. If you can conquer tension without medical help. If you can relax without liquor and sleep without the aid of drugs…then you are probably a dog.” – Tara Brach’s favorite little essay
In the attached excerpt from Tara Brach, she asks “What happened to our Wildness?” which is a question I love.
This piece was played in a movement class I have started going to on Sunday morning called, Sweat your Prayers/Open Floor. It is something I have wanted to try and shyed away from for reasons I am sure many understand. I finally arrived at their doors because I want desperately to communicate with my body. Dance helps define this language with the support of a room full of people willing to move in such a way you can never really see otherwise. It is a door into a reality I find exceptionally rewarding, grounding and cheerful.
If the “primal mood of the separate self is Fear”as Tara Brach states, I see why this year I have felt terrified. (explanation why is a longer chapter) So if I face my fears and break through to the other side, I will discover my authentic self? To know and to do are two seperate things entirely. Showing up to a hippie dance class by myself with a room full of strangers dancing for two hours at 11am is a display of my desire to move away from some not so easy discomfort. I then find this genuine, primal and liberating feeling of peace. Growing out of old conditioning is simple but not easy. If there was ever a place to start weeding, I find that living within my childhood roots reveals the wildest soil. Though it is OH so Northern Californian of me to be writing this, it is honest as I find my true wild nature…at least I aspire and pray to but I am only human.